The Time for Change is Now

This is the beginning of the end.

As I welcome myself back into my online/social media spaces after weeks of spotlighting exclusively Black voices, I need you to know that I’m not looking away. Never again. The time for change is now.

I feel an unshakeable obligation to support this revolution. The call is coming from deep inside the Earth, from deep inside of me… not from any other person, group, entity, or news source that I follow. Can you feel it?

It’s time to create something different.

The time for change is now.

Its time to correct the mistakes white people made when we busted into this country & claimed it as our own… mistakes we were making long before that. Mistakes we’re still making today.

It’s time for systems that support ALL current & aspiring Americans equally. It’s time to dismantle the systems that don’t.

Guess what – that’s ALL of the systems we have – law enforcement & justice, healthcare (including mental healthcare & social work), welfare, education, etc… ALL of them require deep-down change. It’s time for our systems to serve WE THE PEOPLE more than they serve the powers of patriarchy, white supremacy, capitalism… Capitalism as we know it, the grease that keeps all these old wheels turning… grinding most of us down to nothing to hold up the club at the top.

Change is needed on an individual level inside of ALL of us. Change is needed socially in how we interact with each other & intermingle our cultures.

It’s not just racism or capitalism, it’s sexism, it’s ableism, it’s colonialism, etc…

The time for change is NOW.

The time for change is now

It’s time for us to CHOOSE what we want & stand for it, rather than defaulting to the status quo.

Time to dig deep, find our truth & do whatever is needed to support it.

It’s time to reimagine what this world can be like, what we can become when we work together towards a common goal… True FREEDOM for ALL.

We won’t be scared & silenced.

We’ll stand powerfully in the truth of what we’re fighting for. We won’t back down.

What we’re up against is completely devastating, but I’m not looking away anymore.

Time to stay focused & keep momentum.

The time for change is now.

We need to be having these conversations constantly until we’ve accomplished our universal goal of true freedom for all. Isn’t that what America is supposed to be about, anyway?

“O, let America be America again
The land that never has been yet—
And yet must be—the land where every man is free.” – Langston Hughes

My role here is to inspire you and to provide guidance in moments when you need to dig a little deeper to find the truth inside of yourself. I’m willing to lead, especially in that regard – providing mental, emotional, & spiritual support that is truly available for all. I would love to help you strategize around your projects that are focused on the collective good, in a way that really nurtures who you are & who you want to be.

I’m ready to shine a flashlight on our truths & stand together for our future.

That being said, we all need to explore a wide range of perspectives on a regular basis to find what’s really true & right for us.

I invite you to explore, follow, and support the work of these Black leaders.

Some do what I do or similar, others can guide your more specific actions towards racial/economic equality. There are some amazing Black-owned businesses you can support here & podcasts you can listen to. Check ’em out:

Here’s a directory of Black therapists all over the country.

Nedra Glover Tawwab – owner & therapist at Kaleidoscope Counseling & content creator – @nedratawwab

Aycee Brown – spiritual guide, coach, & entrepreneur, owner at Goodnight Darling Co. – @ayceebrown

Rachel Cargle – academic, activist, and lecturer, founder of The Loveland Foundation & The Great Unlearn – @rachel.cargle @thegreatunlearn

Brandon Kyle Goodman – writer, actor, speaker, and activist who’s videos addressing his white friends (with the added perspective of having a white husband) have gone viral in recent weeks – @brandonkgood

Sonya Renee Taylor – poet, activist, author, and leader, founder of The Body Is Not An Apology – @sonyareneetaylor @thebodyisnotanapology

Layla F. Saad – author, speaker, & teacher at the Good Ancestor Academy – @laylafsaad

No White Saviors – an advocacy campaign to call-out the White Savior Complex (WSC) & create a new normal in Africa that casts Africans as the heroes of their own story – @nowhitesaviors

Brittany Packnett Cunningham – activist, educator, & writer – @mspackyetti

The Conscious Kid – an education, research, and policy organization dedicated to equity and promoting positive racial identity development in youth – @theconsciouskid

Austin Channing Brown – media producer, author, & speaker – @austinchanning

Erica LeShai – musical artist & producer, owner of Jovi Shai beauty – @ericaleshai

Ibram X. Kendi – historian, writer, speaker, and founder of Boston University’s Center for Antiracist Research – @ibramxk

Imani Olear – pastor, speaker, mentor, founder of Yoga 4 a Good Hood – @faithhadahouse @yoga4agoodhood

Akilah Green – lawyer turned comedy writer – @akilahgreen

Black Visions Collective – an organization dedicated to Black liberation and to collective liberation based in Minnesota – @blackvisionscollective

Until Freedom – social justice organization addressing systemic & racial injustice – @untilfreedom

The Black Detour – an independent media outlet that centers the Black community & issues that impact them – @theblackdetour

Evyan Whitney – sex educator & facilitator – @evyan.whitney

Andre Henry – writer, musician – @theandrehenry

Find voices that resonate & challenge you, and lend your support when you’re inspired to. Choose to prioritize economic equality with your dollars.

This list obviously isn’t exhaustive. What Black leaders impact your life? What are your favorite Black-owned organizations, artists, & businesses? Who do we need to be listening to right now? Please share in the comments or email me – info@briannamcinerny.com – & let me know who I need to add to the list.

Let’s all uplift Black people more intentionally moving forward.

And more so, let’s let the Black experience deep into our hearts, in a way that keeps us standing up for what’s right. Standing up for them is standing up for every single one of us.

As always, you can connect with me anytime. Take care. <3 

Quarantine 2020: Anxiety To Conscious Wholeness

Friendly reminder: whatever you’re experiencing right now is OK.

Whatever emotions are involved. Full-spectrum – complete bliss, to angry, to awful, and everything in between.

However inspired & productive you’re feeling, even if not at all.

If you’re pulled towards rest.

Whether you’re connecting virtually or isolating even more than you need to, or if you don’t have the luxury of isolating at all.

Any challenges or disagreements you’re having.

If you’re feeling lonely, or like you can’t get a moment alone. Or both.

If your life, relationships, and business are doing better than before, or if everything is in the gutter…

It’s ok, babe – it’s all gravy. There’s no need to judge.

quarantine conscious wholeness
I took this photo a few weeks ago. It was mid-first-week-of-self-quarantine and the vast uncertainty/fear in our world was getting to me. I was sad, scared, angry, grateful, hopeful, excited – all the things. I was also EXHAUSTED from all of it.

My anxiety was the worst it’s been in years, maybe the worst it’s ever been, at this moment pictured.

I can see my own discomfort in my raised shoulders & my scrunched up face. Overwhelmingly on edge, controlling, & defensive. Literal heart pain. Many tears & fears. That sort of thing.

I knew this state was not resourceful to hang out in, and I knew the stress of anxiety on my body would only make me more vulnerable to my fears. Not to mention, anxiety doesn’t do much for my relationships or my goals!

I knew I was called to stand up, show up, and serve my people, but that no amount of fear or anxiety belongs in my message, spoken or felt. I didn’t want to have any part of contributing to the fear (or predatory marketing) in the air.

So, I dug deeper into my daily focus on Conscious Wholeness to soothe & support myself into a more powerful, inspired, actionable place. Here’s what that looked like for me…

natural wholeness
Staying away from screens, moving my body, and being in nature has been huge.

My first step for getting pretty much anywhere is acceptance.

My experience is OK. It’s acceptable because it is. All parts of me are acceptable & allowed here. (Yours are too.) From acceptance, I can ultimately expand into full throttle enjoyment of every part of my current experience – even the parts that suck.

With acceptance, I stop resisting & fighting against the things I want to change. When I stop wasting time & energy resisting something’s mere existence, whether it’s inside or outside of me, I free up energy to see things more clearly – so I can do whatever I need to do to shift for the highest & best of all involved.

Also related to acceptance – I’ve been finding a lot of satisfaction & comfort in shadow work.

If you’re not familiar, shadow work is about accepting/integrating/loving up on the parts of ourselves that we’ve learned to hide & reject. This can be triggering & symptom producing in itself, especially if you’re new to the practice. It’s also incredibly effective for real-life magic-making.

shadow work
This current read, Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliot, has been guiding my most recent dive into my shadow. With shadow work, it’s incredibly wise to have a guide (like Carolyn or me). <3

After acceptance, my next step was Emotional Alchemy.

Simply put, I felt what I was honestly feeling, approached it with curiosity, and excavated clarity & guidance from the pain I was experiencing.

I explored the biggest source of my anxiety – that I could possibly lose my life or someone I love.

Another fear was stemming from a deep belief that the Earth doesn’t want me here. I wondered if I’ve done enough good, purpose-driven work in my life to warrant her keeping me around through this.

I examined where the sore spots were, where my shadow was secretly enjoying this experience and determined what if anything I could do to address the fears I was having.

Going through this process reminded me how much I love living on this Earth, and how much I cherish the people that I get to spend time with here. I want to have as much time here as possible, so I can live to be a wise elder! I have a lot to give to the world, and I want to show up every single day to give those gifts as best as I possibly can.

Ultimately, I can only control my approach to the situation, not the situation itself.

I decided that I *could* control doing things to boost my immunity – like going through this Conscious Wholeness process – reducing stress/increasing joy & pleasure, taking exquisite care of my body, and setting strong boundaries around personal contact to follow CDC guidelines related to the current pandemic.

It also feels like I’m processing big emotion for the collective in addition to my own stuff – can you relate? There’s a LOT to sort through. As a result of my reflection, I started getting even more intentional about my energetic boundaries along with the physical ones.

Now I’m staying connected to my friends & family through this time… checking in on them, enjoying those relationships as much as I can, letting them know how much they mean to me while we’re all still here.

I’m inspired to continue showing up every day, open to receiving intuitive guidance about which actions are next for me, with a willingness to take those actions.

After sorting through all of that, I went deeper into caring for my body.

Luckily, that’s been really easy for me to do in my current privileged circumstances.

I allowed myself to relax, separating myself from my tech & almost all outside media. I started taking a daily nap & I let myself off the hook in as many ways as possible so I could pour all my energy back into myself.

I’ve been making use of opportunities to work out virtually with friends from all over the country. I’ve exercised at home for years, and it’s never been easier or more satisfying. These pilates classes with an old co-worker & friend Lo Collins are my recent favorite.

puppy love
We welcomed this new puppy, Maynard, into our home in February & he’s been keeping us very busy! The timing seemed awful initially, but now we see how perfect it was.

Caring for him has been incredibly helpful for me physically, too, pushing me into long daily walks & fresh air at least a few times a day.

signs of spring
I’ve been enjoying every sign of spring in our yard. It gives me a nice sense of normalcy & routine among all the changes happening, offering a reminder to step back & let the Earth do its thing.

When I’m connected with my body, aware of my emotional experience, and prioritizing my physical feel-good this way, I’m naturally more calm, grounded, and confident in my abilities to face the challenges at hand.

Which brings me to trust.

This is the needle mover for me when I need to shift anxiety into a more powerful place, especially lately.

For starters, trust begins inside of myself – trusting myself to take care of my own needs, follow through on my own word, & protect myself effectively in times of need, as best I can, no matter what happens.

Additionally, I’ve needed to surrender to what I can’t control, humbling myself to receive information and guidance from sources larger than myself.

From there, I moved into recognition of how the universe supports me. I can find a LOT of evidence to support that recently – ranging from everyday stuff to cool synchronicities to the straight-up spooky magical events.

I’m so grateful for the resources I have access to, and how well I’m set up for this time in our lives.

We had an incredible & unexpectedly full weekend with loved ones right before all of this went down.

natural wholeness
I often miss living in Boston, but these days I’m incredibly grateful to live exactly where I do, within easy walking distance to very private pieces of nature.

I’m financially prepared – not only in my bank account but in my relationship with money & consumerism as well.

I already loved getting my groceries delivered. I’ve received most of my fresh produce at my doorstep for over a year through Misfits Market. (Want to give Misfits a try? You can use the code COOKWME-YM5BSY to give both of us 25% off).

The cherry on top is that this pandemic has changed absolutely nothing about my business. I already do mostly virtual work with my clients from a home office. I network virtually with people all over the country. There has never been more need for high-quality emotional support & guidance, in a way that doesn’t overburden our healthcare system. Plus, I had already transitioned Conscious Wholeness to a pay-what-you-want model back in early February. No changes needed. I’m already as accessible as possible for everyone regardless of their financial situation.

This and more is Conscious Wholeness.

I access a more powerful state of being through Conscious Wholeness whenever I’m feeling anxious, and practicing this over time has helped me create the perfect life for me that can’t really be shattered. The only thing that will shatter me someday is death itself, and I can only pray that’s many years from now.

Conscious Wholeness moves me through the world from a place of deep authentic connection with myself, my body, my spirituality, the Earth, and the people who mean the most to me. Practicing strengthens & deepens this feeling over time. It has me feeling safe, good enough, ready for whatever life throws at me.

I know that as long as I have air in my lungs & this body to carry me around I can get through anything. That is an amazing feeling.

I’m feeling so much better now, but in this world, it’s a daily focus to stay here.

Really, it’s always been a daily focus remembering that *I* am the only thing in my control.

Conscious Wholeness helps me control what I can, and let the rest go.

When I do that, I can see this period of time for what it is – an unbelievably magical, miraculous, unprecedented opportunity for us to evolve together as humans.

The Earth is asking us to reflect on who we are, what we’re getting hung up on, and where our priorities lie. She’s asking us to start working with her instead of against her.

There has never been a better time to shed the way things have always been so we can rebuild it the way we WANT it to be.

That’s where I’m hanging out lately.

If you relate, I would love to explore this new world together.

Join Conscious Wholeness so we can dive deep together, come hang in my free FB group the Cocoon, book time to connect with me 1:1, or simply leave a comment and let me know what you think. <3

Thank you so much for reading. Stay safe & well and we’ll talk again soon.

CLEAN: What 2019 Taught Me About Money

Before I move fully into 2020, I gotta share with you the biggest lesson I learned in 2019.

My word for the year was CLEAN.

I wanted to clean up physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally.

CLEAN became my goal amidst many boxes & much clutter mess, two weeks after I’d moved in with my boyfriend.

Last year, we completely refinished our back room from a storage space into a beautiful home office. We deep cleaned our whole house and transitioned a second room & our garage from storage space into FUNctional for living. We cleaned up the yard & maintained the outdoors… The best part is that we built cleaner habits & ways of communicating with each other to help us maintain this progress moving forward.

Our finished office was wallpapered storage space this time last year.

It’s worth noting that I significantly cleaned up my relationships with other people last year, too.

Quite a few friendships fell off the map. I cut way down on social media, unfollowing people & leaving groups that weren’t meshing with me. I became a minimalist when it came to hiring outside professionals, leaning more deeply into my own creative, supportive, strategic work (especially Conscious Wholeness).

I’m *so happy & proud* of the progress I made in 2019 focused on CLEAN.

The area of my life that got cleaned up the most was one I least expected – my relationship with MONEY.

I anticipated 2019 being a year of “cleaning up” financially… especially refining my financial systems & the way money flows through my life.

Instead, I got put through the wringer with my money mindset. This year forced me to become way more consistent and intentional about appreciating & allocating the funds in my life.

I thought I was pretty well set after working my money-mindset over my first few self-employed years.

I’ll tell anyone who’ll listen: getting your relationship with money & your plans for allocating your money straightened out is an important first step when you’re branching out on your own.

I thought that cleaning up other areas of my life in 2019 would allow my already-improved relationship with money to flourish, without realizing how much I was still getting in my own way.

I was still looking for a savior financially, rather than taking full responsibility for my own financial health.

My bank account & my ability to buy stuff were still directly related to my personal worth in my mind.

I was still stuck in old beliefs rooted in scarcity, competition, and general not-enoughness when it comes to money.

I was worshipping money over things that matter so much more, and for completely misguided reasons.

It’s no wonder how I ended up here. In a capitalist America, competition, consumerism, and scarcity thinking have been conditioned in me since I was a baby, sitting next to a TV playing commercials.

In 2019, despite every effort I took to grow my business & otherwise make more money, I was stalled out.

I consistently struggled to find the money for gas, groceries, other necessities, and my credit card bills. Investing in myself & my business, buying gifts & giving back, and making purchases for things like creativity or self-care seemed impossible.

It was incredibly frustrating.

Speaking from a completely privileged perspective, this past year was my lowest of low when it comes to money.

I’d seen Conscious Wholeness open things up financially for just about everyone who’s participated, so I started asking… “why isn’t this working for ME? What’s wrong with me?”

Throughout the first half of 2019, I was in a low place.

Looking back I see how this experience will help me in the long run. Living it, I felt ashamed about my financial state for quite some time.

It was hard in other ways than financially. One of the most difficult elements was my inability to help other people & continue growing myself in this work I love the way I wanted to. I often felt like I wasn’t providing anything to the world and it was really hard to feel valuable.

I was still leaning into Conscious Wholeness, reminding myself that everything *IS* working, feeling so grateful for my beautiful relationship with myself & my partner and all the support & abundance around me.

But, that question was all too quick to come back… “Where the hell is all my money?”

I was downright desperate & frantic trying to get help, implement strategies, & learn from experts to take control of my situation.

Eventually, I recognized that my decisions were still being made from a place of fear & scarcity. That wasn’t helping.

So, in the middle of the year, I leaned even deeper into my own process, including Conscious Wholeness around money.

I started being really intentional about the decisions I was making & the conversations I was having around money. My mind opened & I became way more creative with what I already have. I got honest about the truth of my experience & welcomed support from the people around me.

I received these flowers from a debt collector I spoke with while unable to pay credit card bills. I received the tomato cages in the background from a lifelong friend & amazing life coach Karen Poole, who likely had no idea what a lifesaver she was at the time.

I sought support & relationships with people whose relationships with money are ones I admire and started reading the books they recommended & following their advice. (Extra special shoutout to Hilarie Mae here. Your support, guidance, and friendship has become a magical, empowering, & inspirational lifeline for me).

This book came at exactly the right moment. I adored the conversation about “sufficiency” in our resources and loved how well this concept dovetails with Conscious Wholeness.

It became clear that the desires I had, all the reasons I wanted money – travel, adventure, deeper connection & more time to spend with my loved ones, material desires, etc. – were already manifesting in my life even when my numbers weren’t improving.

The view from my flight leaving Ireland in August 2019.
A moment from a blissful first evening in the Adirondacks, right as the leaves there were starting to turn.

Ultimately, I realized that money is indeed 100% necessary in my life – for certain professional goals & the impact I intend to have. That being said, money is not all that important in the ways I previously thought.

Money is not responsible for my happiness, my health, my worth as a person, the quality of my relationships, or my safety here on Earth.

All of that is 100% inside of ME, whether there’s money in my pocket or not.

Turns out, I love being resourceful. I love appreciating and using what I already have, considering that ENOUGH, rather than buying something new at every impulse.

I’m so much happier being intentional with my money, spending it in ways that affirm my life & my values. I enjoy spending thoughtfully, in ways that spread my love to people & causes I care about.

Am I excited & eager to have more & more money to play with? Absolutely.

Did I already feel like I was doing these things before this year? YEP.

And, 2019 brought my financial awareness to a whole new level.

This year showed me, without a doubt, that I can have a completely full life that’s not reliant on money.

That sort of life – a life that feels satisfying, impactful, & fulfilling regardless of my bank account – is what I’ve been building in the second half of 2019.

(I’ve been talking openly about this journey all along in my free group The Cocoon).

I’m moving forward into 2020 with an even deeper understanding that my safety, my worth, my belonging in society has ZERO to do with the money I make. Those things have everything to do with who I am, what I’m here to provide, and how much I’m willing to BE that person day after day.

I’m remembering that everyone has something incredibly valuable to provide, regardless of how much money they have.

Everyone has enough resources inside of themselves & in their environment to do whatever their heart calls them to do.

We still need other people. Support, conversation, and collaboration are totally necessary. We need to join our resources together rather than trying to do everything ourselves.

That being said, we bring so much more to the table when we’ve done the work to build our independence, love, safety, freedom, and worth from inside of ourselves first. This year, I remembered that those things have absolutely zero to do with money.

Dependence on money is a choice, whether we’re consciously making that choice or not.

When we judge ourselves & other people on the basis of money alone, we limit what we’ll be able to accomplish.

It’s time to detach from the false money idol & reconnect with what really matters.

We can re-connect with money for what it is – a powerful resource, one of many resources we can use to create cool stuff while we walk this earth.

Family, love, growth, purpose, creativity, collaboration… And more. Those are the things that really matter.

I love money & where I see our relationship going.

I haven’t totally figured it out yet.

The more I learn, though, the more I realize how few people actually DO have money “figured out” – whether they’re aware, upfront & honest about that or not.

Another thing I’ve remembered this year – when someone claims to know all there is to know about a topic, beware.

The majority of people I interact with have unhelpful stories & their own reasons to feel bad about money.

We feel bad because we don’t have enough of it. The money we have is there at the expense of our relationships, happiness, and who-we-really-are as people. We’ve created all these stifling rules & limitations around the way we grow & spend our money.

So many reasons to feel crappy and uncomfortable, about something we deal with every single day.

So many of us live our lives feeling like we never had enough when the opposite is true. We ALWAYS have enough, and that’s always been true. We always have enough to take the very next step we need to take, so we can do the most amazing things.

Cheers to 2020 becoming our most abundant year yet.

Practicing Conscious Wholeness is one way to bring money back into a beneficial place in your life.

I know it because I’ve done it. I’m head over heels in love with my resources when I seem to have less than ever.

I’m so grateful to be entering into 2020 firmly footed in this knowing. Now, knowing my money isn’t my power, I’m prepared to use my money powerfully in the years to come.

Thank you for reading. <3

The Evolution & The Gift of Conscious Wholeness

In 2009 my life was changing.

One of my senior photos taken while earning my undergrad degree.

I was a senior at Boston University and I was thinking about that big life question – “what’s next?”

I’ve always known what I want in life in terms of the impact I want to have. The path to MAKE that impact has not always been so clear. 

In 2009, I remember sitting on the front porch of my apartment building smoking a cigarette with a friend. We talked about the episode of LOST we’d just watched. Then, somehow, the conversation turned to who we wanted to be in the world.

I told him that I wanted to develop & teach psychological theory.
I believed I could make the world a better place by helping people feel happier. 

When I reflect over the last 10 years, this is still one thing I know for sure. If I can help people feel better, I can change the world. (So can you). This is what drives me, it always has.

At that time, I knew little of real happiness.

My most enjoyable moments were fueled by nicotine, booze, & uppers. 

I thought that happiness was about suppressing all of my pain – so I could keep smiling and stay positive. So I could keep grinding for success in our system & receive all the material pleasures that success offers. 

Since then, in my quest for true happiness, my life has opened me up to so much more than that. 

My graduation from Boston University.
My 24th birthday in 2013.

Years later, with some work experience and therapy under my belt, came another huge realization about how I wanted to contribute to the world. 

I hated seeing the ways our social, healthcare, and government systems oppress people every day.

Our system is a reflection of the values it was built upon. We all (often unknowingly) reinforce these values inside of ourselves & in our relationships every single day. The values I’m referring to here are rooted in our assumptions about what it means to be poor, or to be mentally ill, or to have different skin color or sexual preference or gender. 

We’ve created a system that sorts us all into uncomfortable boxes that allow a few of us can stand on top to take in the beautiful view.

As my systemic discomfort grew, I started referring to my big vision (very privately) as my Martin Luther King Jr. goal.

I’ve idolized MLK Jr. since I was a kid. I realize I might be out of place referencing his image this way.

What this goal meant to me was that in order to help people feel HAPPIER, I needed to help everyone feel EQUAL and FREE too. I needed to create a world where we can all feel safe and good enough exactly as we are. We need to feel that our contributions are valuable, whatever those contributions may be. 

During my trip to Ireland in August 2019.

After 10 years, I stand before you with an imperfect life.

I don’t have all the money in the world, or all the power, all the respect, or all the opportunity that I’d like. There are absolutely still things I’m working on, things I’m calling in, goals I’m moving towards every day. I’m discovering new desires every step of the way.

What I *DO* have is a clear understanding of exactly how to feel freer, safer, more satisfied and truly happy at any moment regardless of what’s going on around me.

In the absence of everything and everyone else, I could explore my own body and mind for eternity. I know how to find faith and trust in myself, how to find strength and freedom from there. I know how to BE with myself, finding deep pleasure & love in my quietest moments.

This doesn’t mean that I always feel amazing. I cry, get angry, doubt, lose faith. I grieve when I lose people & things I love and sometimes I fear my own death.

What’s different is that I KNOW how to honor these feelings and shift them into a more empowering place whenever I want to. I have the awareness and strategies to notice sooner & bring myself back every single time I step off the track.

Suppressing ourselves in any way is not the answer.

By listening to ourselves, understanding ourselves, loving ourselves, and integrating all of that love into the core of who we are, we become free.  

People say there’s no clear process for how to do this, but they’re wrong. That’s exactly what I’ve created for you in Conscious Wholeness

Conscious Wholeness was previously called Mental Wholeness.

Conscious Wholeness provides strategies and exercises with the power to change your entire life for the better – especially when you commit to a lifelong practice. 

My own Conscious Wholeness provides an inner sense of happiness and freedom that relies on ME and me alone.

Conscious Wholeness cultivates freedom that doesn’t rely on my bank account, my relationships, my job, my “success” in the eyes of others, my living environment, or anything else. 

My Conscious Wholeness allows me to more deeply nurture those parts of my life from a base-level of fulfillment, so I can build a life that’s perfect for me, spreading love & wholeness to everyone I come into contact with. 

These are the foundational tools I use to build emotional intelligence & independence, allowing me to cultivate loving healthy relationships with all other things outside of myself.

For me, this is my first step to pursuing literally anything else.

This is the culmination of all the work I’ve done over the past 10+ years – condensed down into a course you can easily complete in 3 months. 

To begin a lifetime of Conscious Wholeness, you’ll spend a fraction of the time, money, and energy that I’ve spent learning it myself (hundreds of thousands of dollars and almost as many hours on education, certifications, client work, my own learning/personal growth, etc). 

Even better, when you say YES to Conscious Wholeness before midnight tonight (Wednesday 12/4/2019), an additional person of your choice will receive lifetime access to the Conscious Wholeness community & content for free.

This can happen in one of two ways:

A person of your choice will receive the free access

OR – if you’d like, I’ll select an applicant who has financial need. (email me if you’d like to be considered & I’ll send you the application – info@briannamcinerny.com)

People who LOVE learning & personal growth will love this gift.

They probably listen to a lot of YouTube videos and other inspirational content.

They might have a lot of great ideas that they haven’t yet brought to fruition, or they’re having trouble settling into “their thing” in life – the “right” job, relationship, or city – because they’re always called towards something new, something better.

Maybe they need more support than they can afford right now.

Or, maybe they’re simply going through a hard time and it’s tough for them to reach out.

They (and you) want relationships, supports, & streams of income that don’t compromise who you are as people.

That’s all on the menu here.

Conscious Wholeness provides tools to BE with yourself in a new way, in every moment – so you can make conscious choices that’ll empower & inspire you and everyone around you, no matter what.

Your purchase of the course includes an Epiphany Session with me, a distance energy healing, instant access to 10+ hours of pre-recorded content, workbooks, and more.

This is a gift that will keep on giving way past the holiday season.

It all started on that porch with the realization that more happiness could have a positive impact on the world. It grew with the realization that to be truly, deeply happy, we need to feel free.

Freedom is not something we’re given or born into, it’s something we cultivate ourselves.

I would love to support you in finding the same freedom for yourself. 

Join me in Conscious Wholeness today & bring a friend for free.

Please leave a comment and let me know what this story inspired you!

If you’re a NO for Conscious Wholeness right now, there are other ways to connect…

Join my free FB group, the Cocoon, where I show up every day with questions to help you reflect.

Book an Epiphany Session, a 3-hour one-on-one session where we’ll create movement in your life right away.

Or book a time to chat with me, no pressure! I’d love to get to know you better.

Sending lots of love to you always. Thanks for reading. Talk soon. <3 

S.L.I.C.E. Values Video Series

Are you familiar with the name of my business – S.L.I.C.E. Inspiration & Consulting

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Have you wondered what the S.L.I.C.E. stands for? 

I created the S.L.I.C.E. Values video series for you, where I explained that S.L.I.C.E. is an acronym standing for my core values in business – Success, Love, Interdependence, Creativity, and Expansion. 

In this 5 video series over on YouTube, I spent time diving deeper into what each of these values means to me. 

Here’s the video about Success. 

Here’s the video about Love. 

Here’s the video about Interdependence. 

Here’s the video about Creativity. 

Here’s the video about Expansion. 

These are the values that drive me & guide every decision I make, as I provide inspiration & help my clients with their goals & projects. 

Will you watch the videos? I would love to hear what you think! Leave a comment. 

Also, consider joining my free FB group, The Cocoon, where I show up every single day to ask thought-provoking questions that will deepen your connection with yourself. 

Thanks for reading & watching! Take care. 

Anxiety: Once My Co-Pilot, Now My Inspiration

I need to talk to you about anxiety.

It’s all about control.

Understanding everything that could possibly go wrong so you can try and defend against it.

Doing everything for yourself & everyone else, because you won’t trust other people to do it the way you want it done.

Desperately trying to make sure everything is “just right” and going down without a hitch, contorting yourself to make it happen.

Building resentment towards the people around you who don’t know how (or don’t care) to help.

Keeping people we love at an arms-length, rather than enjoying the deep connections that we really want – because we’ll feel less vulnerable that way.

Anxiety is all about fear.

Fear of dying, fear of losing love, fear of being rejected by the people close to you.

When that fear starts driving your actions and changing you from the person you really are, it’s a problem. It’s a problem common to many of us.

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The girl in this photo was scared shitless, but she was done hiding from it.

She literally couldn’t hide it anymore. Anxiety was impacting every single area of her life. It wasn’t working.

Looking back, I can see this was a turning point for me…

I was so hungry for my deeper purpose and I knew it lived inside of me, I could feel it.

Finally ready to prioritize the unknown, I gave myself over to what my body was trying to tell me. I was ready to deeply listen to myself again, for the first time in a long time.

When this photo was taken I was not too far removed from weekly anxiety attacks, my own emotional co-dependency wreaking havoc, superwoman syndrome that kept me constantly on the edge – especially at work, putting out fires with ice cubes left and right.

My commitment to understanding & supporting myself changed things for me right away.

The more I was willing to listen to my inner guidance & follow it, the better I felt… And the goodness just keeps getting deeper & wider with time, the further I’m willing to go.

The woman I am today… 6 or 7 years later, maybe?… is lifetimes away. Not anxiety-free by any means, but happy as a clam.

I recognize a lot of similar things between now and then… I see so clearly how much GOOD this earlier version of me had going for her already, even though she had no idea how good it really was or how to fully appreciate what she had.

My life NOW is not perfect, but now I know that I’ll never be done… Whatever I accomplish, I’ll always want more & better & faster. That’s OK.

There will always be scary, hurtful things that are out of our control in this life.

Avoiding fear & anxiety & whatever other emotional challenges we encounter doesn’t really serve us, it blinds us. It keeps us stuck in the same cage we’re in. That’s not a solution. It takes a lot of effort & it still doesn’t work.

Oddly enough, emotions tend to shift when we’re able to lean in instead of away. When we look closer at anxiety to see what we might be fearing and address that real root fear – rather than frantically swimming around stuck in meaningless details of what’s happening around us – that’s when we’re able to experience the freedom & excitement we’re looking for.

Instead of running away, we need to get quiet & look deeper.

When I look my fear in the face, ask what’s up, live more slowly & more intentionally, processing & addressing the deeper feedback I receive… I’m able to suck the juice out of each and every moment, and I have more juice to share with others.

That’s important to me because, at the end of the day, the only moment we’re guaranteed is this one.

Whether we face that fact with fear or with trust is our choice.

We need to enjoy our people, do what we’re called to do, love how we want to love, & be the fullest version of ourselves NOW. Because we are not guaranteed tomorrow, and that’s a plain simple fact.

Loving & connecting with myself through the strategies I teach in Conscious Wholeness (previously Mental Wholeness) is the foundation that allows me to live this way.

The solution is leaning into yourself & the universe & the people you love. This is how you will start to feel better & still get everything done that needs to be done, getting (& giving) the most with every moment you have.

That’s what I live & that’s what I help with, so you’ll have everything you need to make new choices when you’re presented every-day opportunities…

Accepting an offer for help – no matter how large or small – instead of saying “no, that’s fine, I can do it myself.”

Using your own self-connection & loving treatment of yourself to lift you away from the bad habits & crutches in your life.

Successfully grounding yourself & addressing your internal needs instead of generally freaking out or getting snarky, angry, & critical towards the people you love.

Advocating for what’s important to you, rather than conforming to the desires of others.

Expressing your boundaries when they’re being crossed or close to it, so the people around you understand how you want to be treated.

Honoring your own boundaries rather than crossing them to do something that depletes you.

Choice by choice, your life will open up & you’ll feel better.

If this is interesting to you, please connect with me.

Leave me a comment and let me know – if you could learn one thing about anxiety, what would it be?

Thanks for reading.

Dissolving Hate: Violence & Racism in White America

I have never felt like a racist, but I understand that I’ve been shaped by racist views, including stereotypes portrayed by the media. I also benefit from a system of government that was built on racist views. I work to deconstruct these views in myself every day.

 

I care about diversity & equality & freedom, I always have. 

 

In our time, though – it is not enough to be “not racist”.

 

We all need to be actively anti-racism. We need to make it explicitly known, in no uncertain terms, that we all deserve to feel LOVE & LOVED. Free from hate & fear. Safe to be exactly who and what we are. PERIOD.

 

Everyone would benefit from a world like this. 

 

We’d all feel safer & happier in our communities, taking trips to the store with our families. 

Maybe we could relax and enjoy our favorite bands live again without being on high alert. 

We could help each other – regardless of differences and associated stereotypes – with the unique skills that each of us brings to the world. 

We can learn from each other & come up with better ideas for the future, for our children’s future. 

 

Life is not a zero-sum game; the more we have, the more there is. We don’t need to fight for our resources… we’ll be much better off building upon our resources together. 

 

First, though, there are some issues that need to be resolved. Something is very wrong here. That’s clear in our society and our politics today.

 

Hate and fear are not the ways forward. Love is. 

 

I’ve been increasingly curious over recent years about the tenants that hold up racist views in our society, especially in the spaces I inhabit… for instance, as a resident of rural upstate NY. 


Upstate NY seems overall pretty whitewashed
(most people are conforming to white perspectives) & white-favoring (people & systems favor “whiteness” & white skin, whether they’re aware of it or not).  Not just here in my small town; I noticed this in the city of Rochester, too, though in Rochester, the conversation seems much more public & I noticed strong Black leadership in the area. 

 

Clearly, there are still MANY places in this country that fit the category of whitewashed and white favoring. 

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In my small upstate NY town, and in other towns like it, it’s clear that some of our children are growing into racist and aggressive adults. 

 

I spent time in conversation recently with a young man who outwardly expressed racist views.

 

Earlier that night, I’d actually considered leaving – rebel flags all around me let me know my values didn’t line up with where I was. Then, when presented the opportunity, I wasn’t strong enough to engage full throttle in conversation with a group of men about this obvious racist choice. They all claimed that the flag, to them, had nothing to do with race. 

I was intimidated & fell quiet quickly after asking about the flags (even if I didn’t necessarily *need* to back off – they weren’t trying to threaten me). I’d been drinking, so I couldn’t drive away at that time. 

 

I slowed drinking & got comfortable. As the group thinned out I was able to have more deeply personal conversations, including with one of those rebel flag-waving men. He generously answered my questions about how he grew up, inspiring several people with us to share their own stories about violence they’d witnessed or experienced directly growing up. This is not an uncommon story, definitely not in this area. 


That night, I also heard stories about multiple school-age boys threatening gun violence.

 

In all cases, responses were already in progress with teachers & professionals involved. “Stop playing violent video games” was one main course of action. 

 

The relationship between aggression & violent media is one of the most widely researched in psychology. YES, in almost every case research has shown that violent media & games present a risk factor for aggression. However, no direct causal relationship between violent media & violence has been found

 

We need to realize that our children conform to & learn from their environment. They are deeply influenced & shaped by what they see & hear the most.


Video games aren’t the cause of this issue, neither are guns – these are all just symptoms feeding back into a bigger issue. 

 

We have been exposed to violence throughout our history, and we keep on continuing the cycle. 

 

Did you know that corporal punishment – including spanking – is illegal in more than 50 countries? The United Nations & several other entities have encouraged people to abandon the practice, because the research is clear that physical punishment has a negative impact on our development. Yet, this is still a common parenting strategy here in the United States

 

Our violence is supported by a deeply rooted belief system in this country – based on fear & tribalism & survival & conquest – passed down in droves generation to generation.

 

We’ve held onto our fear & survival based beliefs despite the fact that our world is changing. 

 

These beliefs are quite literally what this country (as we know it) was built on. Our lands were forcibly taken from the Native Americans who already lived here – because we ourselves were unwilling to go back to oppression in Europe. We took on a “kill or be killed” mentality, and built our society around it. We built on & maintained stolen lands, fighting wars to defend them on the back of African American & Hispanic people.

 

We as Americans are *ALL* impacted by this history & our collective views, which are intertwined with our current structure of government & the patriarchal values system we share. 

 

There’s a lot of violence happening in inner cities, abuse happening at our southern border, conflicts between government entities & people of color/their allies – all additional symptoms of the same foundational discord we’re experiencing right now.   

 

We are clinging to fear, conflict, and violence to survive. We need to prioritize differently moving forward. 

 

At a very foundational level, we are still sticking to our own to survive — sticking to our chosen groups & smaller circles, succumbing to limits in our minds… as opposed to reaching out and embracing each other as one big interdependent community – where EVERYONE is capable, shares similarities, & has value to contribute. 

 

We need to remember our *real* goals of finding freedom & expansion. Moving forward, that will require a new strategy.  

 

Violence is perpetrated by once little boys and girls – who were not as fortunate as me, to be exposed to many supportive open-minded adults & diversity, education, and affluence growing up. Instead, they were witnessing violence and racist views all around them, sometimes growing unsurprisingly into violent and racist adults. These kids were largely fending for themselves, confused, struggling to survive. Kids who absolutely *needed* to conform in their community or find a new one. Kids who literally might not have survived without a group to belong to. 

 

This is a similar story to the one that’s told about inner-city kids, who are vulnerable to gangs and shady dealings to get by. 

 

Yes, everyone has choices, and I will never condone violence… and, it’s really not hard to see where all of this is coming from when we’re willing to look a little deeper.


I want to understand the views of my racist white neighbors and ancestors, I want to understand these parts of myself where unknown & fear still lingers… I want to find ways to deconstruct this issue of racism and violence at its root. 

 

What kind of “different” are you afraid of? How did you learn to be afraid? 

 

We can no longer say “not us” – not in our hearts, not our sons, not our brothers, not our friends. 


We can no longer say “damn them” – they’re hateful, they’re crazy, they’re broken, they need to be dealt with or removed from society entirely.

 

In arguing amongst ourselves & falling into fear we are making what’s already done even worse.  

 

In pretending that we aren’t a part of this issue, we’re making it worse.


Yes, our leaders need to act instead of encouraging of violent, racist views.

Yes, we need better gun laws, better healthcare & mental healthcare.

Yes, something on a large scale needs to be done right now.

Yes, we DEFINITELY need better prevention of these issues moving forward. 

 

And, we ALL need to accept our individual responsibility for making LOVE the contagion we’re spreading, not hate.

 

We ALL need to be willing to go deeper, so we can look at the hardest parts of this issue & understand the ways we’re contributing to it. Because WE ARE ALL CONTRIBUTING to this issue

 

We need to accept that our neighbors are violent shooters, our neighbors are being killed. We are all one community, one country, one collective human race.

 

What’s real for one of us is real for all of us.

 

We all have the choice to devolve into more fear and hate, or to choose compassion, kindness, and love – first inside of ourselves, for ourselves, and then for others. 

 

We cannot continue on like this. 

 

“We must live together as brothers, or perish together as fools.” – Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. 

“Hate cannot drive out hate. Only love can do that.” – Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

 

Responses based on love, with our long-term problems and goals in mind, will have an impact on this huge problem of violence in our country. This issue is impacting every single one of us. What can we do? 

 

*My main suggestion – self-reflect on how you might be contributing to this issue, and take action from that place every day.* 

Here are some questions you can ask yourself: 

What kind of “different” am I afraid of? Where did I learn to be that way? 

Is living in fear of differences helping me or contributing to my life in any way? 

What am I most interested in about the topics of violence & race, that I can google & learn more about today? (I’ve learned a lot following @rachel.cargle @shaunking & @nowhitesaviors on Instagram, to name a few). 

What’s one small action I could take today to welcome more love, newness, & diversity into my life? 

 

Prioritize addressing racism & white supremacy within yourself and your communities. 

 

What else can we do? Spoiler alert – there will *ALWAYS* be more to do.



Better structured gun regulations, gun safety, yes, yes, yes.

I recently wrote a blog series on suicide prevention; keeping all firearms safely secured is a huge part of prevention there, too. So, if you must own guns, please maintain all proper safety precautions & keep them locked up.  Take these steps not feeling limited in your freedom, but with intentions for love & protection of your children and the people around you. Guns allow us to feed/protect ourselves & our loved ones, right? Practicing/teaching good gun safety is how to make that happen in the safest way possible.

And, are automatic weapons *really* necessary for you? Are you military trained and/or qualified to have them? Are you feeling satisfied, loved & clear in mind? Let’s get real here. 

 

We can always provide more education & support (especially support to parents) around early prevention of racism & violence.

We need to arm parents & teachers with the knowledge & tools they need to shape young minds that will be the future of our society.



We can continue to support causes that are diving deeper into this issue…

organizations/leaders who are promoting love & equality, related research initiatives, organizations providing preventative action on race & violence-related issues. I intend to add some great causes to this post – which ones are your favorites?

 

We can provide empowerment resources that encourage self-awareness, self-realization, individuality, & relationship-building skills for all people.

We need to stop hiding from the depth & the reality of who we are & the power we hold – both as individuals and united as a collective. This is my life’s mission. For instance, I’m hosting a free class on Thursday 8/8/19 @ 7:00 PM EST called Harvesting Power in Challenging Moments, and I’d love to have you there. I also host a free group called The Cocoon full of support & strategies for developing a deep & strong self-connection.

 

There are all kinds of ways to connect with me, and many other people you could choose to learn from.


Once we’ve done some inner work around racism, we can strive to create open conversations, connecting with each other & exposing ourselves to different viewpoints on this issue. When we commit to talking to each other, we can find common ground to start from.
Be willing to be compassionate & loving when the people around you are sharing themselves with you.

 

Alway start with compassion & love for yourself. Love can always emerge to dissolve fear & hate. 

 

I will strive to create conversations in my online communities & in my real-life conversations that work to deconstruct the belief systems holding racist views relevant in our society. I would *most* love to host conversations where people of all colors are free & safe & comfortable to contribute to discussions on this issue amongst each other.  

 

What else? Feel free to riff on thoughts & ideas or share the causes you’re donating to today in the comments section. 

 

I want everyone to know that you’re seen, loved, & safe with me. 

 

If you’re hurting today amongst these mass shootings, I’m with you. 

 

Thank you for reading. 

Suicide Prevention & Awareness Part 3

This three-part series is meant to promote suicide awareness, and we will be discussing suicide throughout. If you are feeling suicidal & need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-TALK – and get some support. There are also a ton of resources throughout this post. I truly hope you will stay alive and stay with us. 

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You are vast and needed.

On a personal note, thank you for the beautiful response to part 1 and part 2 of this series. I’ve been blown away by the love, kindness, and support I’ve received – both from my closest friends and from strangers worldwide. These blogs have been very challenging for me to write, and you’ve made this labor of love so incredibly worth it. It’s clearer to me than ever that we’re ready to get together & come up with creative ways to prevent people from dying by suicide. 

In part 1 of this series, we covered general suicide stats & research, and I shared some personal opinions on the topic of suicide. 

In part 2, I shared my experience with a recent bout of my own suicidal thoughts, including the steps I take to stay alive through those moments. (The same steps I use to thrive through any challenge in my life). 

Today, we’ve got a lot to cover, so you might want to bookmark this to take it in bits & pieces. (Plus, you might want to save for easy access to the resources)! We’ll be talking about all things suicide prevention:

– The current research and which methods are working well. 

– Protective factors; things that make people less likely to die by suicide.

– My thoughts about how each and every one of us can prevent suicide as we move forward.

…And, I’ll leave you with even more resources-a-plenty so you can get support whenever you need it & learn how to better support others. 

These sections are clearly marked so feel free to skip down to what you’re looking for.

Here we go:

The current research in suicide prevention says…

One important thing to note is that everyone is different. There are MANY different options available to us when we’re looking for help. 

Suicide is complex. There isn’t one cause or one solution; usually, not even within one person. 

This variability is what makes prevention efforts tricky, and also what gives us so many choices for how we can impact this issue.

There are great things happening in suicide prevention and there are things that each of us can do.

The best prevention methods for the elderly (primary care evaluation) are different than for teens (support groups, family therapy, school-based prevention), and best practices for preventing veteran suicides are even different still (VA based evaluation & crisis planning). I absolutely love this article which breaks down the recent prevention research by risk categories.

What I noticed here is that good suicide prevention requires strong access points.

Where are suicidal people already connecting with other people and with service providers? How can we support these people where they already are? How can we start a conversation about suicide in those places? 

Since most suicides occur in the working-age population, workplaces can be a strong access point for suicide prevention.  

If you’re a business owner or manager, I’m talking directly to you here – you can understand your role in suicide prevention and foster a workplace that reduces stigma by encouraging connection, communication, fulfillment, and mental health.

This is not only helpful for preventing suicide in your employees. You’ll be better supporting any employee who’s lost a loved one to suicide, and anyone who deals with a mental health issue at any point while you’re managing them. Believe it or not, this likely describes at least 50% of your employees. (Maybe including you).

You can help your employees be aware of these warning signs in their coworkers, and provide training that addresses suicide in the workplace.

(Feel free to schedule a conversation with me if you’d like to talk more about this.)

Healthcare & community services provide a great access point, too; indeed, the International Association for Suicide Prevention has created a Gatekeeper Training for these providers with this in mind.

Faith communities are another common gatekeeper for issues like mental health & suicidal thoughts. (We’ll come back to faith in a minute).

I believe that each and every one of us can be an access point to prevent suicide when we know what to look for and how to have these conversations

Something else that seems clear in suicide prevention research is that limiting access to lethal means, like guns, really does have an impact on reducing completed suicides

This is a big opportunity for us to reduce suicide. Firearm deaths accounted for 50% of suicides in 2016.

Many people think that someone who’s suicidal will just find another way, but a lot of research shows that isn’t true.

As I mentioned in Part 1, the decision to commit suicide is often impulsive, so reducing someones ability to access a gun or lethal means while their fleeting impulse passes can literally be life-saving. 

Even if a person *does* find another way, they’re more likely to survive a different type of attempt, and most people who survive a suicide attempt never attempt again.

Another trend in suicide prevention is an emphasis on responsible media reporting when portraying the topic of suicide. There are guidelines in place for reporting on suicide & blogging on suicide.

Avoiding calling the suicide hotline because you don’t like talking on the phone? No longer a problem. Online resources are springing up to support us emotionally when we need it the most. This can be especially helpful for certain technologically-inclined risk groups, like adolescents.

As this psychiatrist suggests, we need to be willing to take a long hard look at the *real* causes of suicide, rather than chalking it all up to hormonal imbalance as we move forward with prevention. An antidepressant or antipsychotic is not always the answer to prevent suicide.

There is no one cause of suicide.

Many, many issues contribute to completed suicides – homelessness, accessibility of healthcare, health issues, and poverty, just to name a few. We need to address all of these things (and more) as we continue to approach this issue.

Factors that make us less likely to die by suicide

We can all practice & encourage our loved ones to practice these things to prevent suicides.

Good healthcare is important, including behavioral health such as a therapist and/or psychiatrist. (Here’s a video I made a couple of years ago about choosing good providers.) We should all put the best possible healthcare in place for ourselves, and encourage our loved ones to do the same.

When it comes to support, the more the better. Surround yourself with empowering people and invest in yourself when it feels good and right for you.

Strongly developed life skills, including emotional coping skills, problem-solving skills, resiliency, and adaptability when change hits are protective against suicide. Good self-esteem, a consistent sense of self, a sense of purpose in one’s life – all protective against suicide, so they’re also worth prioritizing, too. (Conscious Wholeness could help strengthen all of these).

These programs are reducing suicide in North Dakota, by both teaching life skills and fostering supportive connections.

The importance of connection can’t be overstated. Feeling connected to friends, family, and community – and feeling a sense of belonging to those groups – is essential. Here’s some great information about how connectedness relates to suicide, and we’ll come back to connection in the next section.

Finally, holding strong cultural or religious beliefs that discourage suicide is a protective factor. On the other hand, strong religious beliefs causing shame & guilt or feeling cast-out by your religious group can be a risk factor too, so this one isn’t always straightforward. We’re going to talk more about spirituality in the next section.

My suggestions for preventing suicide today

First & foremost, if you have weapons or lethal means in your house, keep them safely locked up & secured, please. Seriously. As I mentioned before, this is a huge opportunity to prevent suicide with minimal effort. Especially with children/adolescents around, or if you have people with mental health challenges or substance abuse issues in your home, this is a must.

Familiarize yourself with the warning signs, so you can better identify and open dialogue when someone you know who might be at risk.

Prepare your knowledge about suicide prevention resources in case someone who needs your help opens up to you. Congratulations – if you’re still reading this blog you’re already off to a great start! I’ll leave you with even more resources at the end.

Once you’ve covered those basics, I believe your best steps to contribute to suicide prevention today are:

Address the parts of your mind that contribute to stigma.

Your mind is very powerful. You are creating your own reality every single day whether you realize it or not. You have the ability to shift & change the way your mind is working for you.

It’s all too common to dismiss ourselves and others as being crazy, as attention-seeking, or as being lazy… whatever-the-hell judgment we find suitable to put on ourselves & others.

On autopilot, we operate on subconscious patterns & beliefs that keep our needs met in a very, very basic way – like “stay alive” and “keep love” without distinguishing the kind of love and life that we *really* want to create for ourselves.

When we interact with people, our patterns and beliefs are impacting them too, even if we don’t realize it.

When you feel love, understanding, and acceptance of the topics of mental health and suicide, you will become a safe place where people can connect with support. That effect will spread out all over your world.

We need to become aware when we’re perpetuating the narrative that mental health or suicide is weird, scary, and bad – something to be avoided altogether.

We need to adjust our expectations of ourselves and others to be more realistic & supportive of our overall mental health & wellness.

Mental health and wholeness don’t always look like they “should”. It might not mean showering every day, having the energy to say “yes” to every invitation, never watching TV, exercising every day, or even getting out of bed every day.

What matters most is how we feel. What matters is that we’re able to discern what feels good and right for us, and are able to act on that knowledge.

We need to let go of harsh judgments of ourselves and others to create a world where everyone is free to be themselves.

The truth is that almost half of American adults experience mental illness in our lifetime, and every single one of us has mental health to think about.

Some tangible action steps to apply this:

  • Make more time to meditate
  • Seek more acceptance, understanding, and forgiveness of yourself and others.
  • Free write about your perception of mental health. What does mental health mean to you? Have you heard stories about this in your communities and from society? What do YOU think?
  • Do your own independent research on mental health with an open mind (rather than relying on misinformed beliefs). Email me at info@briannamcinerny.com if you need some recommendations to get started.

Create your life based on your intuitive guidance & nudges from something greater than yourself.

Spirituality has become kind of loaded in our society, and I believe it’s hurting us.

Just because someone doesn’t practice or doesn’t want to practice religion – including mainstream spirituality – doesn’t mean they can’t develop faith in something greater.

For me, when I’m feeling suicidal, or when I’m at my lowest and loneliest, my connection with myself and my faith is always at the center of my experience. When I’m willing to go even deeper with myself & my calling, those suicidal thoughts simply cannot survive.

Will you connect more deeply with yourself & a greater purpose? Will you encourage other people to do the same?

My lowest moments are offering me my clearest next steps. They’re providing me insight into exactly what I care the most about, providing my marching orders that I can use to impact the world with my passion and my natural gifts.

These moments are my opportunities to discover and flex my psychic strength. They’re the moments when I feel closest to the “other” side and the moments when I feel most sensitive – the perfect opportunity to gain a deeper understanding of my purpose & my unique sensitivities.

In those moments, I only need to hold on, stay patient, and be open to the messages that are ready to come through… from deep inside of me, AND from a purpose-driven force.

We can all live our lives like this and support each other through this process. It’s a path of really deep fulfillment and almost constant awe.

When we’re grounded in ourselves and driven faithfully by a higher purpose, we create ripples of meaningful change in the world.

Some actions you can take to connect with yourself and something greater (maybe God, maybe the Earth, maybe the universe – what calls to you?):

  • Find what’s special inside of you and use that gift.
  • Be generous with your love, caring, and energy – start by being generous with yourself.
  • Get outside and bask in the wonder of nature – whatever kind of nature you prefer.

From there, connect on a deeper level with the people around you. 

I often see people sharing about suicide awareness and encouraging all of us to check on each other, especially in the wake of very public, unexpected suicides like Robin Williams, Anthony Bourdain, or Kate Spade, or on days geared towards awareness.

My questions for you:

Do you really check in on your people? When you suspect someone is suicidal, do you ask them directly about it? And, if you do, are you really ready and willing to hear the truth – without necessarily trying to jump in and change it?

Are you prepared to listen & connect with that person without judgment?

If you’re the person receiving a reach out, and maybe you’re feeling suicidal – are you willing to go deep with yourself to receive the love from the people around you? Are you willing to connect to the universe & find strategies for coping that work better for you?

(No bad answers here – just awareness).

It’s shown time and time again that connection is an essential part of our life.

Lack of connection is a risk factor for suicide, and feeling connected to others is a protective factor. Connection is a spectrum we ALL fluctuate on at least a little bit – we all feel lonelier in some moments and more loved in others. 

Prioritizing true, deep connection, for many of us, is not what we’re used to.

We’ve been raised in a culture that places more value on competition than connection. 

Relationships are messy. We won’t always have the right words or know how to address each other, especially when times get rough.

What we need is a willingness to sit vulnerably, honestly as ourselves with each other – without walls, without judgment.

We need to be willing to engage around the topic of suicide when the situation calls for it.

When we can ask each other openly about suicidal feelings & talk about suicide without fearful emotional responses, we’ll be better able to support each other on a regular basis. 

If we all focus on connecting more deeply with the people around us, we’ll have an impact on the issue of suicide. 

It’s time to be intentional about shifting our values towards deeper connection as a society so that we’re able to love each other and lift each other up consistently.

Some action steps to get you connecting on a deeper level: 

  • Reach out to someone who’s had a huge impact on you and let them know how you feel about them. Say thank you.
  • Give someone a call and ask for their help on something small. Then, ask if there’s something you can help them with in return. Observe and report back – info@briannamcinerny.com.

Suicide is a global, collective, social issue. I hope that we can keep putting our heads together to prevent needless deaths by suicide.  

Here are some additional resources you can use to get information, get support & become better at supporting others. 

Comprehensive depression & suicide resource guide by ColumbusRecoveryCenter.com – https://www.columbusrecoverycenter.com/depression-resource-guide/

Bring change to Mind – https://bringchange2mind.org/about-bc2m/

Know the Signs – https://www.suicideispreventable.org/

The Suicide Prevention Resource Center – https://www.sprc.org/

Suicide Awareness Voices of Support – https://save.org/

Befrienders Worldwide: https://www.befrienders.org/

Samaritans Boston – https://samaritanshope.org/

World Health Organization comprehensive report on suicide prevention – https://www.who.int/mental_health/suicide-prevention/en/

International Association for Suicide Prevention – www.iasp.info

Big White Wall – https://www.bigwhitewall.co.uk/

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention – https://afsp.org/

Veterans Crisis Line – https://www.veteranscrisisline.net/get-help/chat 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/ 

Contact USA Lifeline Crisis Chat – https://www.contact-usa.org/chat.html

Suicide Awareness Voices of Education – https://save.org/ 

National Center for Health Research – http://www.center4research.org/suicide-awareness-prevention/

And, if you’ve lost someone you love to suicide, here’s a resource offering support and guidance for survivors.

Would you like to stay in touch with me? We’d love to have you over in my free FB group, The Cocoon. Or, shoot me an email and let me know what you thought of this series – info@briannamcinerny.com. I would love to hear from you!

Thank you for reading. I hope to connect more with you soon.

Stay Alive: Suicide Awareness & Prevention Part 2

This three-part series is aimed at promoting suicide awareness, and we will be discussing the topic of suicide throughout. If you are feeling suicidal & need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-TALK – and get some support. I truly hope you will stay alive and stay with us. 

We started this conversation back in part 1 – you can find that here. 

This is the face of someone who thinks suicidal thoughts. 

This photo was taken hours before a recent bout with my own suicidal thoughts… about 2 months ago.  

I’ve talked a lot publicly about how I *used* to be suicidal. It’s true – I used to be much less stable than I am today. I’ve also talked about my relationship with my first love who died by suicide. Indeed, that journey has been foundational to the person I am today. 

But, this doesn’t really reflect the whole story. 

When this picture was taken, I was mid-business strategy event that I’d traveled many miles to attend. Instead of leaving the event inspired that day, I felt defeated.  

Extremely low on myself, I felt like I had a million miles left to climb. I wasn’t sure I had what I needed to keep going. I felt alone, duped, abused, abandoned. 

On the drive back to my beautiful AirBnB, random thoughts about dying started to pop in. 

It’s been quite a few years since thoughts like this took over my consciousness with such strength. They surprised me on this day when they decided to come back for a visit.

I was surprised because I’m in a better place mentally, emotionally, and physically than I have been in years… maybe in a better place than I’ve ever been. 

I’m surrounded by family and friends almost every day, in a healthy and happy relationship. I love my home, my pet snake, my work, my life in general. At the risk of sounding cliche, I’m pretty blessed.

On this day I was shocked to find that none of it seemed to matter. 

In those moments, it didn’t matter that I really want 200 more years to live on this earth, enjoying the people, places, and things that I love. 

It didn’t matter that I’m incredibly lucky and incredibly loved by a surplus of my closest people. 

I reached out for support – and I received it. Even that didn’t matter. 

It felt like nothing mattered, nothing was worth it. It felt like *I* wasn’t worth the air I was breathing. 

This was an old familiar feeling of deep self-loathing… it settled in and wouldn’t shake. 

I ate dinner alone at a bar, brimming with tears, furiously writing in my notebook, a million miles away from home. Two hearty glasses of wine subsided my tears and lulled me to sleep at a decent hour, until I woke up at 2:30 AM feeling frantic, crawling out of my skin. 

I texted my boyfriend. He called me to talk, but I was too irritated to receive the support he was trying to give me. He wanted to understand what was happening, but I couldn’t get my words out about what I was feeling. I was too upset. We both hung up even more frustrated than we were to begin with. 

I felt so betrayed by life. It felt like my loved ones & the world at large would be much better off without me. I felt so tired, so ready to give up. 

Grasping for any sense of connection to myself and the universe that I could find, I stayed awake well through that lonely 4 AM hour.

I prayed, I packed, I paced, I wrote, and I eventually soothed myself to sleep.

Clearly, I stayed alive.

The long 9-hour drive home the following day gave me time to reflect & refocus. Really, I’ve been reflecting on this experience ever since, and my passion for suicide prevention is being reborn. 

I’ve come to the conclusion that eradicating these thoughts is a fool’s goal. 

Because, from my experience, over my relatively short life so far, my feelings only seem to get sharper and deeper over time. This is especially true as I welcome in my physical and emotional experience more and more. 

As I welcome more and more good things into my life, and I feel new levels of awesomely blissful, loving feelings like I’ve never felt before, I also feel new depths of “low”. I believe that’s normal and OK. 

I’ve learned over the years that regardless of my mental stability and strength, which grows stronger every single day of every year, death will still come to visit me.

It’s often on the tail of my best day ever that my worst moment comes knocking. 

Feeling a vast, deep array of emotions, the full spectrum, is an essential part of my creative process. 

Maybe this is who you are, too.

When I judge myself as sick or wrong when I have these low experiences, I stifle myself creatively and I dig myself a deeper hole that becomes harder and harder to get out of every time.

Those judgments breed shame & secrecy… and I’ve learned that anything that conjures shame needs a flashlight shined on it. (That’s what I’m doing here today).

Even though I can’t permanently erase these thoughts from my brain, I’ve found ways to grow stronger through them. 

My tools and my choices are what keep me alive during these moments, so I’d love to share a few of those with you now. (These are the same basic steps I apply to all of the personal & professional project work I do with my clients). 

Cocoon

Cocoon is all about nurturing a rock-solid connection with yourself, that allows you to be your own constant in a constantly changing world. It’s all about leveraging your mind, body, and energy to become the strongest possible version of yourself, so you can magnetize your dream life to you. 

This self-connection is incredibly essential for me when I’m facing my own darkness. 

It is so important to have a system for self-connection to fall back on in these moments when life feels life is falling through your fingers. (I love my Conscious Wholeness system for this).

In trying moments, you will not be in your most resourceful state to learn something new. You need to know how to shift yourself to get there. Well practiced steps, that become your normal every day of the week, can literally be a lifesaver in these moments when it counts the most. 

For me, in the instance I described above, this looked like writing and dumping all of my thoughts down on paper. Acceptance is one specific strategy I use; for starters, I accepted the way I was feeling and I welcomed the expression of my emotions rather than pushing them away. I leaned on my emotional alchemy process to work through the emotions that were coming up. By walking to and from dinner and soothing myself with a cold cloth on my forehead & neck to help me fall asleep, I connected with my body. I leaned into a sense of trust that by following my own process, I’d allow everything to work out perfectly for me. 

Create 

Create is all about partnering with all-that-is to get all-the-things done – as opposed to feeling the need to figure everything out and make everything happen all alone. Faith is very much at the core of this phase… even if the only faith we’re talking about is faith in ourselves. 

I’ve found that surrendering to something greater than myself is an essential component of navigating through moments like these. 

Even as I sat at the bar, eating dinner alone & writing in my notebook, I recognized that this was an opportunity to more deeply understand the highly sensitive creative folks that I’m passionate about supporting. I believed that the universe was trying to show me something important.

I apply every experience – especially the difficult ones – to my purpose, allowing myself to gain more clarity about how I can serve a purpose in the world. 

After years and years of practicing this, I instantly know that my challenging moments are a gift that can highlight my way forward.

My drive to serve people with my life has kept me alive more times than I can count, and partnering with the universe to do this is what *really* makes life feel magical… even when the dose of guidance I’m receiving is hard to swallow. I opened up to receiving the wisdom available to me through this experience, and, that’s when the inspiration for this blog series was born.

Connect 

This is all about connecting with other people because our connections are what life is all about.

Being connected to others is a fundamental human need. More than that, our connections with other people allow us to receive the things we want most in life – love, abundance, opportunities, impact, etc.… we become much more fulfilled, happier, successful people when we’re able to connect and collaborate easily with others.  

On the night in question, for me, connecting looked like smiling at the bartender through my tears, taking his suggestion regarding the salad I ordered, thanking him for his guidance as I enjoyed my dinner. It looked like having a conversation with the man next to me, whose wife was in the hospital after a sudden stroke. I stayed connected with my boyfriend throughout the night, including our phone call that I mentioned earlier. Even though I wasn’t able to receive his support, communicating with him was enough to remind me that there are people who deeply care about me. That felt very important.  

Another essential part of using my connection to others as a support during this time is a decision I’d made long ago, after feeling the effects of losing someone I loved to suicide… I *know* the pain that suicide causes, and I decided that I will never inflict that pain on my loved ones. After years of practicing this choice, I remember quickly, even in the moments when my brain is telling me that I’m a burden to them.

My connections to myself, to the universe, and to my people – and the strategies I use to intentionally maintain those connections – help me stay alive and thriving every day. 

These three steps work. You’re probably already taking some of them yourself, and I hope that you will start practicing more intentionally right away. 

That being said, we are only scratching the surface here. There is so much more where this came from, so many specific strategies that can help you make these concepts real in your life in a way that fits perfectly for you. 

Investing more time, effort, and resources into strengthening these skills for yourself is basically like taking an insurance policy on your life and your success. 

When you practice these concepts, you will allow yourself to stay alive & stick around for the people and projects that mean the most to you. You’ll develop a winning formula to really show up as the best possible version of yourself in every situation. Maybe most importantly, you’ll discover exactly how you can easily set your life up right now to support that most positively influential version of you. 

If you’re interested in learning more from me about this, join my free Facebook group The Cocoon.

You can also connect with me on social media (YouTube, Facebook, LinkedIn, Instagram, Twitter), or email me at info@briannamcinerny.com if social media isn’t your style. I would love to hear from you. 

If you are feeling suicidal & need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – 1-800-273-TALK – and get some support. I truly hope you will stay alive and stay with us. 

I’ll be back soon with the final addition to this three-part series. We’ll be looking towards the future of suicide prevention, exploring what mental health & stability *really* looks like, and more. 

Thanks for reading. Talk to you soon. 

Toxic Masculinity

toxic masculinity

I drew this about a year ago and called it Toxic Masculinity.

I see the masculine side of myself conditioned to drive out every ounce of my feminine – in the name of productivity, accomplishment, success, etc…

This patriarchal mindset is a tough one to shake. 

“Toxic Masculinity” goes so much deeper than most people think.

It’s all about the way we view and value things that are on a more “feminine” side of life – emotions, surrender, spirituality, sexuality… 

What do you view as “feminine”? And, how do you feel about those things?

Toxic Masculinity works inside of all of us – even more so when we aren’t aware of it. 

This shows up as…

Being overly competitive with each other.

Calling ourselves lazy, and being unable to enjoy downtime.

Ignoring our own intuition & emotional guidance, going against our natural cycles.

It shows up in the way we encourage men to be men in our culture – suggesting that “being a man” equates to having zero emotion & being completely detached from/in control of our feminine side.

We can’t swing to the other polarity – over valuing feminine and casting out the masculine sides of ourselves. We need our drive, intellect, focus, decisiveness, confidence… 

A more balanced approach is called for. 

We can…

Support our inner masculine to show up & provide for our inner goddess.

Encourage our inner masculine to refine & follow our own feminine guidance.

Allow our inner goddess to relax into the safe structure our masculine provides.

This looks like…

Accessing intuition AND taking inspired action.

Putting strategies & systems in place for ourselves that create room for us to flow and grow. 

Creating an organized life that provides regular times for us to shut off, AND knowing how to actually relax & restore ourselves when that time comes.

When we approach life from a place of balanced masculine & feminine energy, we become more powerful and fulfilled in all areas of life. 

I would love to help you along your way with this… 

I’m offering a repeat performance of my free, virtual class Transforming Dark Moments into Opportunties for Expansion – Tuesday 5/14 @ 12 PM EST. 

Click this link for more info & to register.

I’ll share three specific strategies that will help you embrace a healthy masculine/feminine balance, so you can be an even more powerful and effective version of yourself.

Finding energetic balance is extremely helpful in moving gracefully through dark moments, and masculine/feminine balance is a part of that.

I hope to see you there!! 💜