Master Your Inner Maze to Free the Best You

Master the inner maze of your mind body & energy to set your potential free with Conscious Wholeness.

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Yes, you get it – you have mind, body, & energy all working inside of you.

You’ve heard these three words strung together on repeat for many years now.

You recognize these are important parts of your life… but HOW do you actually make them real? How do you use this knowledge to reduce your anxiety, or make more space for yourself? Is this truth making you feel more inspired in your day to day once the last epiphany moment wears off?

These answers have been a little elusive, making it hard to maintain a deeply felt sense of center in your life.

The more you explore, the more you’ve found that many wellness & success sources don’t have as much substance, honesty, and integrity behind them as you’d like.

It’s become exhausting to keep searching & searching… only to be surrounded by hustle porn & toxic positivity disguised as motivation, self-care to-do lists, and shallow anecdotes that skirt around the deeper points you’re really trying sink your teeth into.

What’s more rare to find are conversations that are simultaneously elevated & grounded. Both divinely inspiring AND full of real-world experience & implementation. Conversations that truly connect you to ALL THREE of these powerful resources you can always access inside of yourself – your mind, your body, and your energy.

If you’ve been seeking answers & conversations like these, my Conscious Wholeness course may offer a core piece of the inner experience you’ve been looking for.

This practice has a way of tying life together & filling in the gaps about what to do next and why, so you can feel the click-into-place you’re looking for right away.

When it comes to mastering your inner maze, the short answer is – you need to find what feels deeply, noticeably right for YOU and follow that, over and over again.

To find my truth at the center of the maze and live there, I’ve come to take the same three basic steps over and over again…

First I bring awareness to my thoughts, clear my mind of unhelpful thoughts, and choose thoughts that support and encourage me.

Then I get present in my body and make space for whatever I’m feeling. I feel it fully.

Finally, armed with the clarity that I’ve gained, I return to the world more firmly rooted in the person I aspire to be, drawing out the very best parts of the people around me in the process.

I know from personal experience that discerning what feels right can be complicated.

There are all sorts of memories with shame and judgments that have led us to hide from ourselves & everyone else. I need a system for “how” clearly broken down to bring my truth to light in a consistent way. In building that system for myself, I’m breaking it down for you, too.

Practicing Conscious Wholeness can help you clear up what’s clouding your profound sense of self-love, self-understanding, and wholeness.

The Conscious Wholeness content charts a course around your inner obstacles so you can connect to who you are & what you want at your core – inspiring you to take action from a centered knowing place. This takes your inner obstacles & turns them into resources you can use to make positive change in your life.

Conscious Wholeness in practice feels peaceful, spacious, free, and deeply loving. It allows you to clear the way for life’s pieces to fall into place around you.

Your practice will shine a light on your best next steps to truly satisfy your mental/spiritual/emotional curiosity. It’ll help you master the inner maze that has the potential to disorient you.

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Quiet the inner noise & unlock your incredible power by practicing Conscious Wholeness today.

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Thank you for reading! Sending love & blessings, talk soon 💜🙏🙌✨

Move Through Resistance and Show Up to The Work

Showing up to the work of Conscious Wholeness still feels hard for me and requires me to move through resistance every single day.

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morning writing with Maynard
This is something I’ve noticed recently during my morning writing routine.

Once I do show up for myself, the work is easy.

When I finally move through the resistance, it always feels so much better on the other side. It always seems silly that I resisted myself for so long.

Maybe you don’t call it Conscious Wholeness, but I’m sure you can relate to the sentiment of “the deep work”… the curiosities that are calling you further into your own self-awareness, whether or not you’re ready to “go there”.

Moving through the resistance to start is hardest part of the whole thing, time and time again.

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Instead of fighting against resistance, I find it faster & more useful to relax into it.

As the creator of the Conscious Wholeness course, resistance to the deep work has held me back at times.

It took me awhile to fully realize that I was wading through huge amounts of resistance to do this work. Every time I timestamp or edit or go back to the videos to make a personalized recommendation it requires me to take the information in again. Every time I refine one of the worksheets it takes me a little deeper into my unknown self.

I guarantee I’ve engaged with this content more than anyone else in the course, and I’m the one who delivered it!! I’ve been intentionally diving head first into personal growth for more than a decade.

Still, I come away with something new every single time I show up – and I still need to overcome my own resistance daily to harvest the fruits of that labor.

When I move through resistance and do the deep work…

I find the inspiration I need to embrace more of my personal power and responsibility in a way that feels good.

I always come away feeling noticeably better than I did before.

And I notice more and more opportunities to put the Conscious Wholeness tools to work in my life, in new & expansive ways.

Still, I resist, and the resistance can be painful.

I resist in part because I personally resist structure. I’m rebellious. Anything that’s one-size-fits-all seems suspect, even if I created it. 😂 (The only reason this works is because I encourage you to put your spin on it every step of the way).

I must always resist my own knee-jerk reaction to put my feelings away in a locked box, even when I know Conscious Wholeness is only taking me deeper and deeper into them every time.

It still feels scary to listen to the weird AF signals my body is sending me. Part of me is always afraid of what I might find or what might have to change.

Resistance and fear can be even more painful & distracting than puppy teeth!

When I let my resistance go on for too long without facing it head on, fear & anxiety start to take over.

I start making choices based around what I “should” do, instead of following what feels right for me.

I find myself a little too comfy smack dab in the middle of my “comfort zone”, even if it’s not feeling comfortable at all anymore, auto-piloting through my habitual patterns. Moving through the resistance only feels harder and harder the longer it goes unaddressed.

Still, here I am, years later, persistent about showing up to do the work more and more every day. Because every time I do move through resistance and show up, I also notice…

Real, deep, supportive LOVE that’s sourced from the inside is becoming a stronger baseline in my life, and it’s not conditional or dependent on anyone or anything else.

I can keep myself well resourced & ready no matter what’s going on around me by tapping back into this love any time – regardless of my relationship status, my financial status, or my physical energy level.

I have better tools to deal with challenging emotions and problems that come up in my life. Since I have the tools, I don’t need to sweep so much under the rug, and I get to create a life that truly works for me every step of the way.

My practice brings me right to the core of who I am in the world, and I come away inspired about what I need to do next.

All of this has a positive impact on every single area of my life, over and over again.

It brings me a lasting sense of peace that keeps me grounded & focused even when the world around me is chaotic.

It arms me with the clarity & passion to put in work every day for what’s really important to me.

I feel so much more connected to a sense of oneness and powerful faith – starting with faith in myself.

And my relationships with everything outside of myself – my family, my friendships, my home, my career – are set up to thrive and persevere no matter what.

As someone who has always been motivated towards personal growth so I can better help other people, the best part of practicing Conscious Wholeness is noticing the impact on the people around me.

The people who aren’t good for me naturally fall off, and my soul people come out of the woodwork.

They start saying the things that I really want and need to hear from them, sometimes without me even asking them to.

I see them stepping up to their life & thriving more and more.

They self-sabotage less, collaborate with me more, embrace more of their own deepest desires, and practice more of their natural creativity.

Most importantly, I’m able to be more genuinely encouraging of them, the more I’m working Conscious Wholeness… the more I’m allowing all the awareness, desires, and inspiration that come with it.

The resistance is getting easier & easier to move through, because man, is it worth it. I see the evidence all around me.

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Are you ready to show up?

Remember how I said before I love helping people? This is the best way I know how.

Doing the deep work to get our inner ducks in a row is always the first step.

Identifying what we want, where our hangups are, and lining up with what we actually want – mind, body, and energy.

Accepting the way things are right now. Believing in ourselves. Knowing what we want. Listening to our bodies. Clearing up and leveraging the power of our energy. Setting boundaries. Taking inspired action and trusting the process.

These are the sorts of things that I break down step-by-step in Conscious Wholeness.

Conscious Wholeness is something that everyone has, and everyone does – I just find that having it broken down like this makes practicing so much easier, faster, and kind of a no-brainer.

It takes away some struggle and confusion and offers up fuller plates of the good stuff – epiphanies, opportunities, magic, etc – all in endless supply.

A strong foundation of willingness & systems for doing our own deep inner work sets us up to be successful in all the other work that life requires from us… the work of building careers, being in intimate and professional relationships, providing value to the world, becoming a better human every day.

For instance, Conscious Wholeness has naturally paved the way for me to continue taking on very necessary anti-racism work. This is an excerpt from Me and White Supremacy by Layla F Saad.

Conscious Wholeness nurtures a deep love for & belief in myself, which makes me want to be a better lover of and believer in others. And, honestly, this is what the world absolutely needs from all of us right now. When we better love ourselves, we better love each other, and we better love the planet that is our shared home.

So, even if this isn’t for you, I do hope you’ll still find ways to love yourself more fully today. 💜💜

If you’re feeling called to more, and you’re ready to move through resistance, I would so love for you to join me inside of Conscious Wholeness.

Need to talk it out? Set up a time to connect with me today.

Sending so much love until next time.

CLEAN: What 2019 Taught Me About Money

Before I move fully into 2020, I gotta share with you the biggest lesson I learned in 2019.

My word for the year was CLEAN.

I wanted to clean up physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally.

CLEAN became my goal amidst many boxes & much clutter mess, two weeks after I’d moved in with my boyfriend.

Last year, we completely refinished our back room from a storage space into a beautiful home office. We deep cleaned our whole house and transitioned a second room & our garage from storage space into FUNctional for living. We cleaned up the yard & maintained the outdoors… The best part is that we built cleaner habits & ways of communicating with each other to help us maintain this progress moving forward.

Our finished office was wallpapered storage space this time last year.

It’s worth noting that I significantly cleaned up my relationships with other people last year, too.

Quite a few friendships fell off the map. I cut way down on social media, unfollowing people & leaving groups that weren’t meshing with me. I became a minimalist when it came to hiring outside professionals, leaning more deeply into my own creative, supportive, strategic work (especially Conscious Wholeness).

I’m *so happy & proud* of the progress I made in 2019 focused on CLEAN.

The area of my life that got cleaned up the most was one I least expected – my relationship with MONEY.

I anticipated 2019 being a year of “cleaning up” financially… especially refining my financial systems & the way money flows through my life.

Instead, I got put through the wringer with my money mindset. This year forced me to become way more consistent and intentional about appreciating & allocating the funds in my life.

I thought I was pretty well set after working my money-mindset over my first few self-employed years.

I’ll tell anyone who’ll listen: getting your relationship with money & your plans for allocating your money straightened out is an important first step when you’re branching out on your own.

I thought that cleaning up other areas of my life in 2019 would allow my already-improved relationship with money to flourish, without realizing how much I was still getting in my own way.

I was still looking for a savior financially, rather than taking full responsibility for my own financial health.

My bank account & my ability to buy stuff were still directly related to my personal worth in my mind.

I was still stuck in old beliefs rooted in scarcity, competition, and general not-enoughness when it comes to money.

I was worshipping money over things that matter so much more, and for completely misguided reasons.

It’s no wonder how I ended up here. In a capitalist America, competition, consumerism, and scarcity thinking have been conditioned in me since I was a baby, sitting next to a TV playing commercials.

In 2019, despite every effort I took to grow my business & otherwise make more money, I was stalled out.

I consistently struggled to find the money for gas, groceries, other necessities, and my credit card bills. Investing in myself & my business, buying gifts & giving back, and making purchases for things like creativity or self-care seemed impossible.

It was incredibly frustrating.

Speaking from a completely privileged perspective, this past year was my lowest of low when it comes to money.

I’d seen Conscious Wholeness open things up financially for just about everyone who’s participated, so I started asking… “why isn’t this working for ME? What’s wrong with me?”

Throughout the first half of 2019, I was in a low place.

Looking back I see how this experience will help me in the long run. Living it, I felt ashamed about my financial state for quite some time.

It was hard in other ways than financially. One of the most difficult elements was my inability to help other people & continue growing myself in this work I love the way I wanted to. I often felt like I wasn’t providing anything to the world and it was really hard to feel valuable.

I was still leaning into Conscious Wholeness, reminding myself that everything *IS* working, feeling so grateful for my beautiful relationship with myself & my partner and all the support & abundance around me.

But, that question was all too quick to come back… “Where the hell is all my money?”

I was downright desperate & frantic trying to get help, implement strategies, & learn from experts to take control of my situation.

Eventually, I recognized that my decisions were still being made from a place of fear & scarcity. That wasn’t helping.

So, in the middle of the year, I leaned even deeper into my own process, including Conscious Wholeness around money.

I started being really intentional about the decisions I was making & the conversations I was having around money. My mind opened & I became way more creative with what I already have. I got honest about the truth of my experience & welcomed support from the people around me.

I received these flowers from a debt collector I spoke with while unable to pay credit card bills. I received the tomato cages in the background from a lifelong friend & amazing life coach Karen Poole, who likely had no idea what a lifesaver she was at the time.

I sought support & relationships with people whose relationships with money are ones I admire and started reading the books they recommended & following their advice. (Extra special shoutout to Hilarie Mae here. Your support, guidance, and friendship has become a magical, empowering, & inspirational lifeline for me).

This book came at exactly the right moment. I adored the conversation about “sufficiency” in our resources and loved how well this concept dovetails with Conscious Wholeness.

It became clear that the desires I had, all the reasons I wanted money – travel, adventure, deeper connection & more time to spend with my loved ones, material desires, etc. – were already manifesting in my life even when my numbers weren’t improving.

The view from my flight leaving Ireland in August 2019.
A moment from a blissful first evening in the Adirondacks, right as the leaves there were starting to turn.

Ultimately, I realized that money is indeed 100% necessary in my life – for certain professional goals & the impact I intend to have. That being said, money is not all that important in the ways I previously thought.

Money is not responsible for my happiness, my health, my worth as a person, the quality of my relationships, or my safety here on Earth.

All of that is 100% inside of ME, whether there’s money in my pocket or not.

Turns out, I love being resourceful. I love appreciating and using what I already have, considering that ENOUGH, rather than buying something new at every impulse.

I’m so much happier being intentional with my money, spending it in ways that affirm my life & my values. I enjoy spending thoughtfully, in ways that spread my love to people & causes I care about.

Am I excited & eager to have more & more money to play with? Absolutely.

Did I already feel like I was doing these things before this year? YEP.

And, 2019 brought my financial awareness to a whole new level.

This year showed me, without a doubt, that I can have a completely full life that’s not reliant on money.

That sort of life – a life that feels satisfying, impactful, & fulfilling regardless of my bank account – is what I’ve been building in the second half of 2019.

(I’ve been talking openly about this journey all along in my free group The Cocoon).

I’m moving forward into 2020 with an even deeper understanding that my safety, my worth, my belonging in society has ZERO to do with the money I make. Those things have everything to do with who I am, what I’m here to provide, and how much I’m willing to BE that person day after day.

I’m remembering that everyone has something incredibly valuable to provide, regardless of how much money they have.

Everyone has enough resources inside of themselves & in their environment to do whatever their heart calls them to do.

We still need other people. Support, conversation, and collaboration are totally necessary. We need to join our resources together rather than trying to do everything ourselves.

That being said, we bring so much more to the table when we’ve done the work to build our independence, love, safety, freedom, and worth from inside of ourselves first. This year, I remembered that those things have absolutely zero to do with money.

Dependence on money is a choice, whether we’re consciously making that choice or not.

When we judge ourselves & other people on the basis of money alone, we limit what we’ll be able to accomplish.

It’s time to detach from the false money idol & reconnect with what really matters.

We can re-connect with money for what it is – a powerful resource, one of many resources we can use to create cool stuff while we walk this earth.

Family, love, growth, purpose, creativity, collaboration… And more. Those are the things that really matter.

I love money & where I see our relationship going.

I haven’t totally figured it out yet.

The more I learn, though, the more I realize how few people actually DO have money “figured out” – whether they’re aware, upfront & honest about that or not.

Another thing I’ve remembered this year – when someone claims to know all there is to know about a topic, beware.

The majority of people I interact with have unhelpful stories & their own reasons to feel bad about money.

We feel bad because we don’t have enough of it. The money we have is there at the expense of our relationships, happiness, and who-we-really-are as people. We’ve created all these stifling rules & limitations around the way we grow & spend our money.

So many reasons to feel crappy and uncomfortable, about something we deal with every single day.

So many of us live our lives feeling like we never had enough when the opposite is true. We ALWAYS have enough, and that’s always been true. We always have enough to take the very next step we need to take, so we can do the most amazing things.

Cheers to 2020 becoming our most abundant year yet.

Practicing Conscious Wholeness is one way to bring money back into a beneficial place in your life.

I know it because I’ve done it. I’m head over heels in love with my resources when I seem to have less than ever.

I’m so grateful to be entering into 2020 firmly footed in this knowing. Now, knowing my money isn’t my power, I’m prepared to use my money powerfully in the years to come.

Thank you for reading. <3